Don't know why, but i just felt impulsed to blog here!

So whats been happening in the life of me since i last blogged here 4 months back??

Not much really, went back to work after the summer break, which i now hate. Work leaves me stressed and upset on a daily basis, i want to look for a new job, but i dont know if i want to be a teacher anymore, and i don't know where else to start looking as i don't have any proper qualifications.

I started a new relationship a couple months back, which i now regret. I feel like such a bitch for the way things have happened, but the guy is a bit younger than me, and this seems to be more of a problem than i ever thought it would be. He is really unhappy, and seems to rely upon me an awful lot at the moment, and seemed to rush things ever so quickly, after just a couple of weeks of being with him he told me hes fallen for me, then that he loves me, and soon after that i was his world, he would fall apart without me, im all he has, and then he told me that he is in love with me. I honestly can't say i feel the same was back at all!

He keeps deciding that i want to break up with him, when i dont at all, then he gets all upset and funny with me. He keeps questioning me about "us", and putting words into my mouth, and pressurises me into telling him exactly whats wrong when im upset about something, even the stuff i really dont like talking about - ie family problems.

Then theres the other problem, where i've been a total idiot and realised that i still really, really like a guy ive been close to for absolutley ages. This guy doesnt know about my bf, and has recently told me that he really really likes me too, and has asked me out. I didn't say yes, but i never said no either. I just made some joke about it. Argh.

Then putting work and boys aside, theres all the family problems atm. Things are pretty bad, they got really bad during the summer holidays, then after my brother moved out, it all calmed down and for the first time in years and years i was getting on with my mum really, really well. Any that made me feel so amazingly good! But in the last few weeks, my dad has flipped, i've never seen him so bad, really upsetting my mum and me, deciding that i'm not his daughter. He's been angry to my mum many times in the past, but she always gets on with things. This time tho, shes really hurt by it, ive never seen her so unhappy and fed up. Just don't know what to do about it